No Makeup/Bare

I am now a blank canvas.

Where there were once rose cheeks, there are plump golden apples, reflecting the sun, or clouds.

No more foundation to hide the perfect imperfections.

No more lipstick to paint something that was never there.

I still wear stiletto-ed lashes, to accentuate my almond eyes.

They say your eyes are the window to your soul.

Well, that's what daddy said.

So, I help you look in.

I now wear myself naked...nude.

Wear it bare.

The epitome of vulnerability.

Eventually, I'll only wear my skin.

The butterfly emerges from the caterpillar.

-missing blogging but also busy redefining. i'm becoming a'new.
can you feel it?
'til next time.
N

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me

 When Tomorrow Starts Without Me 

By David Romano

When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see; If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me; I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today, While thinking of the many things we didn't get to say. I know how much you love me, as much as I love you, And each time you think of me, I know you'll miss me, too. But when tomorrow starts without me, please try and understand, That an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand, And said my place was ready in heaven far above, And that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love. But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye, For all my life I'd always thought I didn't want to die. I had so much to live for and so much yet to do, It seemed almost impossible that I am leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad, I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had. If I could relive yesterday, I thought, just for a while, I'd say good-bye and kiss you and maybe see your smile. But then I fully realized that this could never be. For emptiness and memories would take the place of me. And when I thought of worldly things that I'd miss come tomorrow, I thought of you, and when I did, my heart was filled with sorrow. But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home. When God look down and smiled at me, from His great golden throne. He said, "This is eternity and all I've promised you, Today your life on earth is past, but here it starts anew. I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last, And since each day's the same day, there's no longing for the past. But you have been so faithful, so trusting and so true, Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn't do. But you have been forgiven, and now at last your free. So won't you take my hand and share my life with me?" So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart, For every time you think of me, I'm right here in your heart.

20/20 Experience

Listening to this album sounds like falling in love.

You are not accidental. The world needs you. Without you, something will be missing in existence and nobody can replace it.
- Osho

Daddy Manifested

My daddy was more than skin and bones.

Today, as I completed the mystery of death, I imagined your different manifestations.  

And then it came to me, that even though your spirit is up there, you are also in everything.

You are everywhere, even in me.

I thought about all the things that you are a part of, and the one that kept re-appearing was water.

I imagined that you are in all seasons and all conditions; sun, rain, snow and hail.

I contemplated the sun and imagined your smile in its rays.

At that instance, the sun came out.

I imagined that you are a part of the water that flows, the water that rains.

So, I contemplated the rain. It rains so much in Seattle.

At that instance, it started to rain.

I imagined your spirit embodied in snow, like the snow angels we used to make.

At that instance, it started to snow.

Moments later, I imagined you in hail.

At that instance, it started to hail.

The louder I screamed "Daddy!", the more it hailed!

I danced in the hail, even though it hurt a little.

But, I danced and danced because I know you were dancing with me.

I've been thinking about the concept of home lately.

In some ways, I have imagined that I have no "home" as I know it anymore.

You were my home.

At that instance, this song started playing on my shuffle, and it reminded me.

If you are everywhere and in everything, I am always at home because....

Home is wherever I'm with you.